Thursday, August 20, 2015

Novel Excerpt, HELLO, UGLY

It was a big house and it had a wide open floor and it seemed like the hole in the wall was thousands of miles away. The mouse scampered toward the hole as fast as its little legs could carry it.
It didn't look back for fear of the sight that would paralyze it, but it knew the cat was close behind. It could hear the cat's big, deadly paws booming away, hard on the floor, on either side. The cat's hot, fish-stinking breath was the only thing there was to breathe.
The mouse screamed as it felt the big paw smack into its back but as its legs went out of control it managed to scramble into the hole.
It struggled to its feet, feeling all wobbly and exhausted and moved away from the entrance and the groping paw. The mouse ran down a passage that opened up into a cavern.
There was something living there. They were rats. The mouse saw that they were similar in shape but the rats were bigger, uglier, dirtier, mean-looking. Hateful. The rats glared at the mouse. They bared their sharp, malformed, yellow teeth.

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jack

       the rats, the rats

jack

hm?

what happened to your face?

huh oh my face oh i had trouble in school yesterday i fell and then a bunch of kids who hated me bashed my face into a zigzag

a zigzag

yeah you know

jack your father and i are worried about you

laughing, why?

look at you look at your face jack what's wrong you go off and disappear all the time without a word to us and

and NOW we get this letter from the school that says you're failing and you don't have enough credits to graduate

jack you know you can talk to us

listen up chief you've come too far to blow it now so get your ass in gear or

what's happening to you

we're not going to let you do this to yourself, hear me boy

it isn't normal

you're gonna wreck your future if you keep going the way you're going

can't go through life this way always going off without telling anyone what kind of a chance do you think you stand being so irresponsible

goddammit jack you'd better listen up you'd better

please jack your face

GODDAMMIT ENID

can tell you've been upset i know a doctor who is very good and he

ENID

HELP you if

ENID

god jack i know it's been hard with zoe and now carol and we can help you i know you can't concentrate if you can just work WITH us

ENID SHUT THE HELL UP

what

GODDAMMIT IT'S SHIT LIKE THIS THAT GOT HIM SO FUCKED UP TO BEGIN WITH ALL THIS KID NEEDS IS SOMEONE TO TELL IT TO HIM STRAIGHT NOW IF YOU'RE NOT GONNA BE PART OF THE SOLUTION THEN ALL YOU ARE IS PART OF THE PROBLEM SO SHUT UP IF ALL YOU'RE GONNA DO IS MOAN AND WHINE AND BE ALL TOUCHY FEELY

cliff jesus

I'M THE GODDAMN MAN AROUND HERE AND SOMEONE'S GOT TO TEACH HIM TO BE A MAN ANY OBJECTIONS ENID?

you sonofabitch he isn't normal

HE'S JUST CRYIN' FOR ATTENTION IS ALL AND NOW HE'S GOT IT AND I'M THROUGH PLAYIN' PUSSY

oh god cliff

DON'T OH GOD ME

goddammit i'm going out for a walk

you do that you go for a walk enid i'll take care of everything here

i know jack

ENID

jack the things you're doing i know they're not normal and i know you need to talk to someone

ENID GET THE FUCK OUTTA HERE AND STOP SCREWING THIS KID'S HEAD UP GOD DAMMIT

oh you son of a bitch

SORRY JACK YOU KNOW YOUR MOTHER SHE MEANS WELL BUT SOMETIMES SHE JUST DOESN'T UNDERSTAND US GUYS YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?

YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?

                                                                                 the rats, the rats

YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?

LISTEN CHIEF IT'S A BIG HARD WORLD AND ALL BUT YOU'RE NOT MAKIN' IT ANY BETTER ON YOURSELF NOW WE GOT A BIG PROBLEM DO YOU THINK YOU'RE GONNA BE ABLE TO PULL THINGS TOGETHER WITH YOUR GRADES SO YOU'LL BE ABLE TO GRADUATE?

sure dad

SURE? Y'KNOW IT'S IMPORTANT THAT A YOUNG MAN GET TO GRADUATE WITH ALL HIS FRIENDS AND FEEL LIKE HE'S AS GOOD AS HIS PEERS IT'LL LOOK BETTER ON YOUR PERMANENT RECORD AND YOU SHOULDN'T BLOW THAT

i won't

ARE YOU SURE FROM WHAT I'VE HEARD IT SOUNDS LIKE YOU ALREADY HAVE, SON

no i

I MEAN LOOK IT'S FUN TO BE FREE AND IRRESPONSIBLE WHEN YOU'RE A KID BUT THAT TIME IS OVER JACK AND NOW YOU'VE GOTTA FACE THE FUTURE AND THE SAD TRUTH IS THAT LIFE ISN'T ALL GOOFING OFF

i

IS THERE ANYTHING YOU CAN DO TO GET OUTTA FAILING I MEAN LOOK IF YOU WANT I'LL GO DOWN THERE AND TALK TO YOUR TEACHERS AND SEE WHAT

no dad

WHAT?

no it's okay i've already met with my teachers and we're working together to straighten it out

SO YOU'LL PASS?

yeah dad i'll pass

SO YOU'LL BE ABLE TO GRADUATE WITH EVERYONE ELSE?

uh-huh

GOOD. THAT'S GREAT JACK YOU'RE STARTING TO SHOW SIGNS OF BEING A RESPONSIBLE YOUNG MAN ALREADY WANNA GO OUT WITH YOUR OLD MAN FOR AN ICE CREAM OR ANYTHING?

no dad I can't i'll be real busy these next few days hitting those books and everything

WELL ALRIGHT YOU GO DO THAT I'M PROUD OF YOU SON

thanks dad


                                                                                the rats, the rats their teeth







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Tuesday, August 11, 2015

HUBCAP DIAMOND STAR HALO

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it’s one am and Wendi’s an angel next to me the blurry night a rush of joy and abandon and Christ we got ripped and like a car she’s so good i’m gonna tell the world she’s just like robin hood blinking lights of the city over the treeline and it’s just like every shimmering notion you ever had of the city hopped up on whatever we could get our hands on and night silver’s in her eyes and in her hair i’m crazy still hopped up the city now a blinking juggernaut past the treeline dancing spinning lights o Wendi chrome goddess chrome angel pretty in the moonlight soft breaths next to me in the grass we look up at the moon delirious star spangled red blooded
AMERICAN,
it all feels so good and it’s tingling all over she feels so good pleasing to behold i will call her Wendi goddess angel spirit touching me in the cool grass the night the city far away the car far away the club far away dancing all night hopped up on whatever we could get our hands on you negotiate to get what you can Wendi xoxo angel stars in eyes pretty in leather like a car and Christ we got ripped delirious moon star spangled dancing moonlight soft breaths on my skin staring up at the stars goddess chrome angel so good i’m crying, literally crying, like roy orbison singing on TV in leather in a yesterday rock and roll dream all shimmering and then the rush of white and black and she’s staring and Wendi is like an angel like a car lying next to me in the grass and chrome goddess chrome angel i’m not sure where flesh ends and chrome begins like a car she’s so good just like robin hood smiling xoxo Wendi rush of white hopped up on whatever we could get our hands on blinking lights of the city soft breaths next to me in the grass delirious star spangled red blooded not sure where she ends and the car begins treeline lights of the city rush of white up goes the zipper Wendi enveloped in LEATHER carried away xoxo staring in the cool grass Wendi is glorious in the sky covered in stars goddess angel spirit forever rush of white chrome the lights of the
“THIS ONE’S BLEEDING I THINK HE’LL BE OKAY”

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